FEAR vs. SELF

Well this time i want to talk about a topic that is almost all the time in my head "Scared." This is the most terrifying word ever and it also has a very deep meaning. Imagine that there is a very beautiful dress that you always wanted to buy, but it's kind of vulgar so it's not easy for you to decide whether you'll buy it or not. Well there are several reasons that stop you, ONE is what everybody is going to think of you when they see you, TWO is just the simple fact that you never thought you'll be dressing that way, ore either THREE is the opinion or actions that your partner is going ta take. It might sound kind of complicated but i do have a point to all of this. The worst part about it is that you do not, under any circumstances want to damage your dignity, but is that even important? lets reflect for a while. You have a very good body and deep inside you there is a complete sureness that people might think wrong about you and your dress. My point is why is it so important to make yourself look good in front of everybody? What about the way you feel and the way you like things to be? Is that something important?... I think it is, but no matter how you feel and what your likes or dislikes are the MOST important is not to fool yourself in font of anybody and never make decisions that will affect your dignity. I think that is what stops everybody from doing what they really like. For example, you've always wanted to be a car mechanic but you can't because the fear of choosing the wrong career is there, is making all the decisions for you and nothing can stop it. It's not what you always wanted but now you HAVE to be a doctor because that is a respectable career and you might have better friends than if you just fix cars. Lets be real, a car fixer will never marry a model but a doctor have a possibility of a least 75% or even more. Now your dignity is the center of everything, you can't do a stupid thing that might end up ruining your whole life. It's not your fault but in some way it is because you ended up doing what others tells you to do but never make your won decision and follow your own destination. Look deep deep inside you and try to correct your mistakes because once they're committed there is nothing you can do to change it. Become your own fear, and that way nothing will stop you and nobody will ever make you do stuffs. That is it for now, be good and remember that YOU MIGHT DO IT TODAY BECAUSE THERE MIGHT NOT BE A TOMORROW....

Movies

Well on Saturday Night my husband, his cousin and I went to the movies, it was a great day because we saw the funniest movie of 2010 "I think." Its called Kick Ass and is hilarious. If you haven't seen it yet well i recommend it to you because it's pretty good and it has NICOLAS CAGE, what else do you want???... well the movie is about super heroes and villains and all that crap you know. So don't wait and go see it I know you just gonna love it like I DO. The funniest thing about the movie is that nobody cares about the super hero and most of the time he gets all beat up and s***. So tell me the next thing you are gonna do is go watch the movie and then you tell me how was it "It's a deal."

DayDreaming?

"The World MUST end up when a couple of REAL LOVERS break up or do something terrible one to another" This is how terrible starts the story I'm about to tell, it was last night, oh wait! I'm not sure, i think it was the morning already when it happened. Wake up in the middle of a CHAOS that me, myself is creating. I just open my eyes and that is how everything starts. My life is almost the same, with the difference that i have another baby which is a boy, my cousin from Spain is here but her boyfriend was killed by a group of gangsters that punched him till death, and i have a LOVER. I always wanted to be with this guy but i wasn't before because i was married already. But wait! this is not it, everything is happening in a place that i had like three years without going to. It's my grandmas house in my natal country miles away from here and everything looks the exact same. I am seeing my lover but with caution because i don't want my husband to find out. I'm looking at the window with a sad face and here comes my lover and hugs me and kiss me on the neck, everything is on fire, so passionate. But now i feel more sad and scared and push my lover away so that my husband couldn't see this. I realized everything was on vain, he knew what was happening. I just have an idea! act like nothing is happening, but it is not working. I ran away desperate and my husband is looking for me to clear things up. I tried to run again but they cached me. But wait! now i see this is another place, is the house of my aunt located in a place called Rotonda. The person who cached me is my cousin, and he is really mad. He is cursing at my husband and my lover too. Seconds passed and the scenario now is where all started, my granny's house, it's a deep arguing between me, my husband and my lover. My husband is all mess up so he decides to go to the backyard of the house. I feel guilty so I'm on my way to talk to him, i can see his sad face all covered in tears so i look at the sky and see a BIG CLOUD of MIST that is covering everything. Scary thoughts start to invade my head and my eyes went wet. I feel so sad and scared that the FIRST thing i do is take my husband by the hand, carry my two babies and run inside the house. Outside everything seem so scary, everything covered by the gray cloud of mist, and not just that but now everybody is fighting to each other and killing each person with punches and a lot more. Now everybody is screaming "We're all going to die." Everything seem so crazy but i have to be STRONG and talk to my husband now, so i say... "Look, i have to tell you something" He starts to CRY and says... "I know, listen to me, if this is what you want leave me, do whatever you want and take anything you want" My eyes were all covered on tears and i see his mother scared watching out the window and inside the house everybody is trying to cover the house so that the mist couldn't get inside and make US crazy. I see my husband and say "I was just playing, he is not my lover!" But my husband CHANGES his face from sad to hopeful and say "I KNOW." Then my daughter starts crying and when i hear that i OPEN MY EYES and look at the clock, it's 8:45 a.m. I'm on my BED, my baby is on her crib and i stand up, carry her and kiss her and take her to my bed TO START A NORMAL DAY AS A MOTHER!...